342. You won’t always be stuck
You won’t always be, being hurt
Won’t have to cover up bruises, emotional or physical
Won’t have to be scared
Won’t always wonder what you could have done differently
You won’t always be depressed
Won’t have to constantly cover it all with a fake smile
Won’t have to wonder “why bother to get out of bed”
Won’t have to drag yourself to do basic self care
You won’t always be lonely
Won’t have to be screaming into the endless nothing
Won’t have to hold on to imaginary friend clinging to a vesatge of childhood
Won’t have to pretend to be someone else for scraps of compaionship
You won’t always have to be as angry
Won’t feel like you have to take the frustration out lest risk exploding
Won’t feel like you have to lash out just to be heard
Won’t always feel like everyone hates you, so you think it’s justified to hate back
One day you’ll heal instead of being hurt , as odd as that sounds
One day before you sleep, you’ll realize you haven’t even thought about it at all
One day, the why’s stop mattering as much..
One day, the pain stops being fresh, and bridges burnt can be rebuilt
One day, your overwhelming sadness or emptiness fades
Replaced, first by sort of okay-ness then by happiness then by joy (genuine this time)
You’ll look forward to getting out of bed most days, genuinely excited by what it could bring
Will revel in that beautiful feeling when both mind and body are cared for
One day you’ll find real friends. Loneliness tends to have trouble sticking around, then
Will be able to talk to those closest to you without so much strain
Will walk and talk and be secure with real people
Will have real friends who care about the real you
And sure, righteous fury can pop at any time, but only the righteous kind,ey
You won’t be full to bursting on anger one day
You’ll realize people will listen more the other way anyway
You’ll realize how much care you have to give, and feel sorry for those who truly have none
It won’t always be what you’re going through in the present
It won’t always be pain, sadness,loneliness,overwhelming anger
But I know how hard that is to just believe in
So for right now, promise me if you just do one thing…
Just please let it be to hold on, and hold fast because you won’t always be stuck.
Atlas Ez Poetry 