#18.5 Wrong
(Note:This refers to the first time I ever really questioned my gender, when I thought dysphoria was the one and only pre-rec. for being transgender, and back when I felt being in the questioning phase was wrong not the trans identity itself,but the fact I myself was questioning. Basically, I was being intentionally naive about a lot of stuff. Questioning who you are is never a bad thing its how we as people grow. Euphoria is also an important piece of being trans. And me questioning was just a hint of how I would truly feel later on in life , and how I truly felt then.)
I can not help how I feel
How I think
How I hurt
How I interpret the world
But at one point I will have to
For what I feel now I know that it feels wrong
Wrong
I don’t understand it and I don’t know how to interpret it
And I ache because of it now if I continue feeling this way for as long as I should
Perhaps I will have an explanation
I will understand
And I won’t feel this way
Wrong
And than I can talk
And I can feel alright
I can know beyond a shadow of doubt
That it is who I am no matter what conclusion I may reach
No longer will feel out of place
I will feel good, have closure, and be right
Atlas Ez Poetry 